Thanx to a web sight i stumbled on last year and my husband buying me a subscription i started my "modeling career" at the age of 30. A strange age for anyone to deside to start doing something like this, i know, but i have never been a conventional type of girl.
Somehow i ended up doing predominantly nudes. I do not mind doing this art form (yes to me it is art) since i have never been ashamed of my body and i work really hard to stay in shape and i also enjoy it very much. But i can't help wondering if nudedy and sex will keep following me around.
I come from a sexual back ground, i use to work in the sex industry many years ago and it still seems to follow me... Maybe it is written on my face in permanend inc? Maybe people can smell it on me? Maybe it is the attitude you learn that sticks with you? Maybe it is in the way i interact with people?
What ever it is that gives me away, it makes my business life and meeting new people hard. Men can't seem to get past it and woman don't seem to trust me.
So this leads me to the question: Will your past always be part of your future?
If this is the case i dread my future...
